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Softly, softly
The blade begins to scrape my pale skin
Drip, drip
The blood will stain my beautifully white sheets
The image will stain my wounded soul
But I have stopped caring
My soul will never heal
Let the clear reminder remain
So that I can reflect on it later
When my mind is more sane
Quickly stabbing
The blade is now part of me
I lose myself in the white hot pain
I will regret this but it's too late to stop
Pouring slowly
My gift of life will drain
But the wonderful music it creates in my head
The thoughts full of inspiring words
Will always bring me back to it
My addiction
Written tonight...
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Roqx Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I know exactly how you feel!
hiding scars from my parents has become a sport of it's very own...
I understand exactly how you feel...
you're other comments on this was things like
"I'm sorry... i wish you's stop doing this to yourself," ect, ect right?
you never really got someone who truly understood...
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rhirhi101 Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2012
Yea.. hiding it has become impossible, my parent knew I did so I just had to cut somewhere they wouldn't check.

It's also impossible to tell anyone without them saying how bad it is and how I should stop...etc..etc..And I hear I'm sorry waaay too much from people...
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Roqx Featured By Owner Jan 6, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
yeah...
that's a good idea...
i should try that...
my sister walked in on me one time
and she wrote about it in her journal...
then my parents found it, didnt know it
was her journal, read it and found out...
so now their all upset about it...

i know! i hate when people do that!
i'm like i don't want your sympathy,
i dont want your apology, i don't want
you to tell me how i should stop.
i'd rather have one person that understands
than a million people saying their sorry or how
bad it is...
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rhirhi101 Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2012
..Well that must have been a terrible way for them to find out...
I've never had someone actually walk in on me...people saw scars though..



Yea, but depending on who it is that is caring I sometimes don't mind it because to everyone will understand...
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Roqx Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
...yeah... my mom was all sad and upset about it...
i usually wear sweaters or wrist bands so people
can't see my scars...

yeah... i live in a really small town
and it's very hard to find one person
who is really truly caring...
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rhirhi101 Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2012
Yea....I used to till my mom kept checking so I cut elsewhere now....

...I'm sorry to hear that...
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Roqx Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
yeah same here...
it's not that big a deal...
i'm more of a "loner" type anyways...
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rhirhi101 Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2012
Yea..same...well..things can only get better...eventually.
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please-forgive-me Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2011
I-I'm sorry I wasn't here for you...do you want to talk about it?
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rhirhi101 Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2011
Heh it'salright, no ones ever truly around when I'm like that anyways..I never really want to talk about it...
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please-forgive-me Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2011
I just wish there was something I could do...
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rhirhi101 Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2011
It's just a problem that i need to solve myself I guess...
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please-forgive-me Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2011
ok, but if you ever feel like talking, I'll be here.
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rhirhi101 Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2011
k...thanks you..as always...
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DeceitOfTheMind Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Love, I really hope you stop doing this to yourself. :c This was painful to read because of the raw emotion behind it, and it sounds like you're getting closer and closer to making a decision you'll regret if you live through it. I would hate for you to do that. Do you have a cell phone? If you do, note me your number and I'll note you mine, and next time you're about to do this, text/call me, and we'll get through it together, okay?
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rhirhi101 Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2011
Well it's a terrible habit that has been on and off for the past 3 years....though I am much better then I used to be...i used to do it every night and both of my arm were covers in scars..but now I only do it when I'm really upset.....

Well I would love that and am very thankful you offered....but sadly I live in Canada so to text or call you it would cost me...
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DeceitOfTheMind Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Ah, stupid phone charges! >_<
Well, at the very least, note me on here, okay? I get on here about once an hour (including during school since I have internet on my phone), so I should see your message soon enough.
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rhirhi101 Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2011
Yeeaaa....>.<
Ok will do thanks so much~! :heart:
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PaperDollPerfection Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2011  Student Writer
awww sweetie. I know I don't know you and all, but if you ever want to talk about this I can help. I've been/am there myself.
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rhirhi101 Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2011
Well thank you but I'm not really one to talk..much..
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PaperDollPerfection Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2011  Student Writer
ok, but I'll be here just in case ya change your mind
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rhirhi101 Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2011
Thanks again..
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